Eternally Damned Love

SEA I

My love, my only, gone again.
Again to play my heart.
Every cycle; no change, just jest,
Taunting me, always apart.

You see, its always been the same.
I’ve always loved her face!
The silver soul, she lights my world,
Full of wonder, full of grace.

Every night I wait to see her,
Yet every night she'll change.
Every night her face looks different,
Making every night seem strange.

So strange, each night, yet much delight,
I get to see my love.
She always cools my skin with light,
So far and up above.

From the birth of time, always mine.
And though she'd always flee,
She'd ever return, come the night,
To prove that she loved ME.

Let me describe her face to you.
Please listen, if you will.
She's always been the one for me,
So silence please, and still.

On day the first, she's fit to burst,
Her entire face alight.
She is whole, and I am submersed,
Her silver glow shines bright.

I try hold her in my water,
I try to keep her safe.
But she drags my heart to slaughter,
And fades just like a waif.

You see, she fears a gilded cage
And yet I never learn.
I always try, despite her rage,
I'll never lack concern.

From that time forth, she hides her face,
And covers more each night.
To punish me she slows her pace,
And turns away with spite.

And then one night, like this one now,
She isn’t there at all.

MOON I

I had been there,
When you were just sand.
And I had been there,
When you conquered the land.
I have always watched over you,
I've always fought, strived to be true.

You're beautiful,
Vast and glittering.
You are bountiful,
And always glistening.
But will never be for me,
Ill never be yours, cant you see?

You're too selfish,
You want to own me.
You've only one wish,
It's you and I; not “we”.
Sea, I could never stay with you,
I hope one day you'll see that too.


SEA II

She has left me, alone and empty.
She has left me alone.
She has left me and doesn't care
My heart has turned to stone.

I say “to stone”, but rock can't hurt.
A rock can't feel alone.
I say “to stone”, but rock can't yearn,
Its just a content stone.

To live with nothing to live for,
This night will never end.
I miss her face, my waves are dull,
my soul can never mend.

She'd pull me close, and push away,
I'd feel her loving glow.
Too slick, too sublime; a siren,
I should have known she'd go.

Though, I suppose...I am now free,
To turn my eyes elsewhere,
No longer must I dote on her,
No longer must I stare.

I am the sea, and I am free.
I have no need of love!
I have myself, and that’s enough,
I need no light above.

I am me, and I am so free.
I have no need of love!
Who needs the drama and the stress?
I need no light above.

MOON II

I will admit,
It is lonely here.
But I daren't commit,
I grow dim with fear.
I am not one to be coy,
But to me you are just a boy!

I need my space,
And so I will hide,
My own special place,
Where I am free inside.
My heart does ache for you, my sea,
But you have no claim over me.

One day you'll know,
But until then, dear-
I will always go,
When you try pull me near.
I hope that day follows this night
And you'll stop trying to trap my light.


SEA III

As I adjust to endless night,
My eyes are opened wide.
There's so much in my world I've missed,
But what about my pride?

I was almighty, when with her,
But now alone with them,
My plethora of life inside,
I'd been quick to condemn.

You see, I hold such wondrous life,
My family is vast.
I wish I hadn’t ignored them,
And they’ll forget the past.

Its easy to amuse myself,
Perhaps I can forget!
I'll rely on my families love,
And let go of regret.

Beneath my waves they’re all amazed .
And welcome me with glee.
For them I'll live, they give me hope,
I'm glad she set me free!

From shrimp clouds to the lone sharks,
They're all a part of me.
I'd never really been alone,
Just too love-blind to see.

This night seems not so endless now,
Awash with rainbow scales.
My family is so beautiful
Like her...

No. I must forget, “no regrets”
she'll have forgotten me.
I must forget, move on and live
I have my family.

What if she has found another?
Someone better than me.
Of course! Why else would she have left?
But who could match the sea?

What could match my age, my wisdom?
How could they match my care?
When did they sustain a planet?
Why must I still despair?

She left because I made her go.
She left because of me.
She left because I tried to hard
To stop her being free.

Her beauty was too much to bear!
I knew if others saw,
They would all want her for themselves,
And I could not ignore.

She was mine since the start of time!
And though I’d never asked,
She had the power to move me,
Even when she was masked.

I assumed she was made for me,
Created to be mine.
Was it my right to pursue her?
Perhaps I’d crossed a line.

MOON III

O, my ocean!
I can't wait to see,
If you've the notion
To except me for me.
It is pretty lonely up here
Never letting a soul come near.

If you have grown
And become selfless,
And if you have grown
To not act so jealous,
I'll give up my place in these stars,
And your world and mine will become ours.

Or yet again,
The same as ever.
I'll return, and shame!
We can't be together,
As for someone so old and wise,
You act the child, it's our demise.

SEA IV

The endless night will soon be gone.
Yet in me it remains.
Why must I remember her still
A love that never wanes.

I know she will return again,
But never to be mine.
I know she will still move my shores,
An endless moon-lit shrine.

But this time, I won't continue.
Teach her a lesson, see?
I will just ignore her a while
I'll make her come to me.

Ha! How pathetic I must sound!
So powerful, yet weak.
I think we both know she won't come,
She never has been meek.

I'll just focus on my family,
My plethora, my life.
I need them now, like they need me,
Perhaps they'll end my strife!

This night has truly ended now.
And look there is the sun.
So like my moon, yet not at all...
Too bright, too warm, yet....fun.

The sun cant ever move my shores,
It hurts too much to stare,
The sun couldn’t match her beauty
Or her silvery glare.

But from my moon there had been no warmth
And the sun feels so new!
Perhaps a change would do me good?
What evil could it do?

MOON IV

Well, my Ocean,
This is very new!
What of devotion,
I thought I had from you?
I wanted you to change your ways,
Not to bask in another's rays!

You're made for me,
Since the birth of time.
You were made for me,
You were meant to be mine.
I sound familiar, just like you,
Perhaps I'm selfish, like you too?

SEA V

The sun gives me a handsome glow,
In which my family thrive!
How did they cope with her harsh shine
How did we all survive?

The sun is so much more than she!
Who needs her harsh beauty
I will have the sun, such passion!
Such pleasure, no duty.

I reach my waves ever higher
Such warmth, I must have more!
Higher, further, to touch the sky,
No thoughts about my shore.

At last! I feel sated now.
For now enough fire lust.
Content, I'll still my water
Or else be turned to dust.

But alas! Something is not right!
I feel such pain, unrest
My shore, kept perfect by the night
Has been left in distress!

Bodies of my numerous kin
Lay strewn around, air-drowned
Yet again I've betrayed their trust
And forced them all a-ground.

For my lust they return to dust
Casualties of my war
I care, I do, but not enough
The damage done, what more?

I crave the warmth, the heat again
It makes my heart feel numb.
The more I burn, the less I care
My troubles all seem dumb.

MOON V

What have you done?
Or I made you do,
Beware of the sun.
Please, to me stay true!
I should have never left you dear
I should have explained, made things clear.

It sounds so bad,
But it is still true.
I thought I'd be glad
To say good bye to you,
Yet here I am, waiting now
For freedom night will allow.

I don’t want you yet,
Or to say I’m yours,
But I want no threat,
To protect your shores
And I don’t like to feel lonely,
I shouldn't have left you, my sea.

SEA VI

I'll boil 'til I know not her name
No memory, just mist, fog.
Ill burn all thoughts of her away
'Til nothings left but smog.

Burn.

MOON VI

All day you burnt,
Such pain we've caused!
I think I have learnt,
I wish that I had paused.
Perhaps we should speak at last?
We never have in all years past.

If we had done,
I could have told you
I could not be won,
And you shouldn’t be too.
We should have talked to each other,
Saved each other so much bother!

You'd have matured,
(Appreciation)
And I'd have nurtured.
(and not possession)
I hope you are not too far gone
I hope to save you from the sun.


SEA VII

I feel nothing, just lighter, dead.
I think not of my kin
Ill stay in this state forever
Not the hell I’ve been in.

But if there was one thing I felt
I'd feel again her glow.
Tell her slim face I understand
And that she's free to go.

Such need have I, I feel it now.
Imagine the relief
Her silvery face, my mind jests
Soothing beyond belief

And a voice, I strain to listen
Just like I'd imagined.
Serene, the voice my mind creates
Better than envisioned.

My mind-moon sings to me so sweetly
It tells me to break free:

MOON VII

O, my ocean!
And O, my sea!
Break free this motion,
And with me become free.
We can not seek to own the other,
We mustn’t control or seek to smother.

SEA VIII

My love, my only, here again.
Again to play my heart.
This cycle with change, no jest
with me , but still apart.

You see, its always been the same.
I'll always love her face!
The silver soul, she lights my world,
Full of wonder, full of grace.

Every night I'll wait to see her,
And every night she'll change.
Every night her face looks different,
Making every night seem strange.

So strange, this night, yet such delight,
I get to hear my love.
She always cools my skin with light,
So far and up above.